This entry has been deleted as I now feel that I was engaging in over the top, over-sharing.
In retrospect this entry can also be labeled as incorrect as I was assuming that I had issues with OCD, a diagnosis I’ve never officially received from any health care professional.
This entry was also written out of fear, since I had reason to believe that a couple of people in the music industry were spreading negative rumours about me. This made me feel that I had to write an entry to excuse some silly behaviour in the past, that were minor transgressions, to be honest.
Yet someone who all of a sudden decides to hate you, will stop at nothing to make you look bad, especially if they feel that they “save themselves” by throwing you overboard.
When I wrote the entry that I’ve now deleted, I was taking the high road, ridding these two individuals of any responsibility, when the truth is that the fault equally lay with them.
This gallantry was something I was not thanked for by neither of these two parties, so it shows that taking the high road and trying to be civil a lot of times is a waste, as it doesn’t necessarily result in forgiveness.
On a different note….
Anxiety/Stage Fright etc; are pretty usual emotions that the majority of the population would face if they were put in the right situations, just as feeling occasionally low in spirits does not necessarily qualify as a depression. If something disables you from leading a normal life, it would make you eligible for the “mental-issues” tag, but there is a general increase in the population of people throwing around diagnosis and self-diagnosing when such a thing would be highly inappropriate.
Of course I’m not suggesting that I’m not quirky, as I certainly am guilty of being very much so, but I express my apologies for prematurely “coming-out” when such a thing was unnecessary and misleading, both then as it would be now.
I apologise again for letting fear dictate my actions and I thank those of you who sent me their best wishes. Thanks.